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Strong wind is roaring outside,
leaving me in a whirl ...




I held my camera high enough to capture iza in "miniature".
Her arms and fingers remind me of her ultrasonic images when I was still carrying her.
Not many years from now, I will no longer have this privilege to view her from this angle...
top view.



It's my urge to keep a portrait of young iza in 1:1 scale ...
Having iza silhouetted, she filled in her own face and details of finger nails ...
We have no time to color it yet.

...

Yesterday, we've just counted the time we can stay together with iza during weekdays.
It's less than 6 hours per day.
9 hours in school + traveling,
9 hours for sleep,
6 hours (maximum) left for breakfast, dinner, washing + brushing + bathing + toilet time, homework , practices for musical instruments ... all inclusive.
Leaving not much for chatting!
If she has extra activities that day, +/- 3 hours including traveling must be deducted from the "6" hours.
In reality, 4 out of the 5 days in a week, she has after school activities.
Time left is good enough for saying good morning and good night.
It's a stupid counting ... by a stupid mama ... but I start to miss iza ...

6 comments:

Yoli said...

You are not stupid, childhood is fleeting.

Sending you a big hug.

Jeanne-ming Brantingham said...

Me too....a big hug for Iza's and her Mommy from far away ah yis.

I still put my 6'5" son on my lap (crushing me of course) and when I finally get him balanced I hold him and tell him..."You know, you use to fit inside me..."
He hates this and jumps off and goes to the fridge....

You are wise to savor every second. Wise woman.

Anonymous said...

not stupid... just a mama, a good mama ;-)
it's hard to let them have their own life, without us!

Fei An said...

Why not make an other baby, Alliot?:)I am kind of ok, maybe the little one is only 4 years old?

The drawing is so Iza! Without any hesitation, I see Iza from it.

alliot + iza said...

Though well aware of it ... the fleeting childhood still strike me in a sudden ... thanks for all of your words!
jeanne-ming, your words becomes a vivid scenery in front of me, so funny and sweet :)
feian, I'm scared by iza, bringing her up is sweet and bitter ... maybe I'm too easily emotionally overloaded, a child with extreme characters overwhelms me in every way ...

Evelyne said...

You are just a Big Mama with questions, doubt...You can stay 24H on 24 h with your child, and to be without relation. And past 30 mn by day but with love ! Sorry for my bad english.